634 Days

634 days ago today, I sat in my room on my king size bed alone and at home while I listened to the boy I loved tell me it was over. I already knew it had been over for a while , but hearing it out loud is just a whole different reality.

634 days ago today, I sat in my room shocked, trying to take it all in and answered phone call after phone call of friends I'd texted, calling to check on me. Each one with the same amount of relief and thankfulness in their voice, but each with the grace not to say it out loud just yet.

634 days ago today, I decided I wanted to be single for a very, very long time. I knew that I was already overwhelmingly healed, because somehow God had been preparing my heart for a while already..

634 days ago today, more doors in my life opened than ever before. Suddenly, my life had so much potential it made my head swim. And even though one major door had just slammed in my face, I somehow didn't even have time to look at it. I suddenly had so many doors in my life swing open, just begging me to walk through one of them. In a split second, I regained so much of myself I kind of didn't know what to do. I regained the ability to be the woman I knew I wanted to be. I wasn't stuck anymore. And in that moment that should have been completely consumed by fear and pain, all I felt was hope. Hope for my future. And hope for others'.

634 days ago today I thought my life had ended, i was convinced. Little did I know it had just begun.

Love

Fearless