Foreign concept of Timing

I am pretty certain that at one point in my life timing was everything for me. It meant i had to be everywhere earlier Just in Case.
I am pretty certain everyone i know who is a natural born tardy human has been criticized by me on multiple and countless accounts.
I am even more certain that I have now become a Tardy person. I hardly wake up on time, unless it is to go partying, swimming, and anything that can go under the category of fun in my books.
Do you find yourself now praying your clock was 2 minutes ahead, because walking into that meeting room with all eyes on you scurrying like a confused squirrel looking for a place to sit, and maybe ending up in your colleague's lap is not exactly your idea of being an adult. That is the next best thing, at least it was not your Manager.

Sometimes I feel that the older i get the more pressed I am to be more late and more irresponsible .
Is this a Sahar thing? Where I am resisting growing up in every aspect of my life , down to the nitty gritty of my own personality. Or is it a culture that we do not get introduced to when younger just because our back then less mature minds may not have been able to handle it.

I am not sure, but I know one thing for sure: i am not satisfied by the fact that the more i Criticize the more it happens to show up in me.

I can simply say  to hell with being on time, in everything.... But i find that being on time most of the time, allows the best of things to fall together.

Love,

Fearless