A Few Years Back

It was the perfect close to a crazy day. The sea and the sky had both merged somewhere in time and were now consistently pitch black, the only thing visible for miles to go were the lights of the fishing boats that spoke of a still forgiving water, water that hadn't frozen over much like everything else i felt that day.. The city was far away. There was only the sound of waves, the wind and the random footsteps of crossing strangers every now and then.
Id felt tempted to climb over the ledge and just get closer , maybe i could see into the water. Maybe the transparency would overcome the absence of light, maybe itll remind me of how i had been. Transparent, light, free. But you see, the irony really lies in the fact that water has always been my element, it had always reflected my mood. Or maybe it was the other way around i always reflected it's qualities in the form of my mood. I forget which.

But I do remember thinking why I had gotten myself into this predicament. Broken hearted , mostly alone. I had managed to Alienate most of my genetic fan base, and chose to let my anger simper until it became a dark hole of desolation that on days like these i wonder how I ever got out of it. 

So for those out there feeling alone, and like no one could possibly understand you, Take heart.
For at some point , on varying degrees, we have all been to that place. No matter how young or How old. Just be afraid enough to know that spending time wallowing and feeling sorry for yourself, is just time you will later pine over.

Smile.

Stay Fearless

Love,


Fearless