On Many Levels of Personal Divestiture

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Humans See The world outside themselves. 

Alienated From our consciousness, we see whats supposed to be inside us as outside, we are strangers to the world.we are constantly in a blurry of confusion of deadlines, expectations and reality. When will it stop? I guess it would stop when you remove yourself from the insistent nagging of life. Yes life nags on you, in different means. It nags with lies, deceit, and heart aches. But it cries with love, passion and pleasure. I close my eyes many times a day, take deep breaths, and try to maintain my focus on why i continue to resist life's nagging. But its clear to me that i am no longer a normal person, oh i definetly dont fit the criteria of the norm.

I am a Noir fever dream of music, seduction and murder. I am a Queen in a comfortable silence. I want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference, the girl that gave you a story to tell. Someday ....we will be vintage. And when that day comes we will think back on the Subtly sexy vocals, laid back grooves, neo-nova personalities and gentle jazz nights we left behind, somewhere in our youth.  Or maybe think back on those nights with flashing lights everywhere, and loud blasting music; somewhere in a club dancing my life away.

I am confusion in every aspect, i am the literal interpretation of oddity. But i am destined to stand out from the crowd, i am destined to be the one that is hated, loved, envied. I am the indefinite stream of thoughts in his head.

I am me.

Love,

Fearless